10 Panic

Jasper had cancer, and for some reason everyone was fine with it. Jasper even decided that instead of dying feeling ill, his friend was going to shoot him. I was not pleased. I kept yelling at him. I cried. Jasper seemed perfectly fine, but he had lost his phone.

I was at North, but it was New North looking exactly like Old North. I was an RA, but I kept seeing people with alcohol and ignoring it. I was in a French class that I was failing. The teacher kept writing me notes at the bottom of quizzes that I did horribly on, and telling me that I couldn't fail her class.

One of the girls in my class who looked like Abby, from my creative writing class, asked me if I wanted some whiskey, but I heard 'to bake some biscuits' and then I didn't want to seem stupid so I followed her. Only there were officials so I bailed on her because I really needed my RA job and hoped she would understand.

I found Jasper's phone and got mad at him. One of the keys was missing, but I could put it back in instead of paying attention in French. A girl behind me found out Obama became president.

09 Fear of Flying

We were going to somewhere in South America and I was excited. Matt and Maddie were there and we were talking about Harry Potter. I was on campus and it was raining but I needed to pack, and I needed my passport. I got my passport and put it in my bag, but it was my British passport and not my American one and I was worried that I wouldn't be able to get back into the country.

We were at the airport, and the airline was one I had never heard of. I didn't check a bag. We had to go underground and then wander around some deep part of the airport. It was a mixture of BWI, Dulles, and Heathrow. Finally we got to the stop, and I realized I had forgotten my passport.

Panic. I need to go back. I need to get on the airplane. I get on without my passport deciding that I will make it work. The airplane is giant. There are classrooms in it, and Mrs. Montgomery from eighth grade is in one dark room and she knows I don't have my passport. She yells at me and I run off the plane and into Kat. We need to get my passport.

It was in my bag the whole time.

08 anger

I was in Vert and we were in a room that was both 107 and 103. Our class was doing experiments on chiclids, a type of fish. I had Oscar, my fish from last year. I think it was my cell bio group that I was doing the experiment with. I was in charge of moving the fish from place to place, but I kept having to move him without enough water and he would look up at me with these eyes. After class we had to put the fish into Tupperware containers, and they just hung there, but Connaughtan said it was okay, because we could reanimate them. Then she asked me to chat with her.We sat down and she said that she wanted me to do well, but she was concerned, and my mother was always someone to lean on. I got mad. My mother had talked to my professors.

I was outside the cafeteria at old North and Bryan was coming to visit me. I called my parents and when my mother got on the phone I threw it on the ground, so angry at her about talking to my professors. I had to pick up the piece one by one because Bryan was supposed to call me.

I was by Bryan, but he couldn't see me. He had stopped his car and was standing on the road. A horrific accident had happened, a girl was zipped into a body bag, and then a cop. Bryan tried calling me, but my phone was in pieces back at North.

I was at the airport, the pieces of my cell phone in my sweatshirt pocket. I was with my mother and father, and we were collecting my aunt Ali, and my cousins. My mother was so mad at her sister, which I thought was funny because I was still pissed at her. Josh and Molly came off of the plane and I hugged them and then they went to an escalator and I followed them, and Bryan was there, and I hugged him from behind and apologized for not picking up my phone.

I was in the car with Molly, my mother, and Ali. They were arguing, and then it wasn't Ali it was some man -- a mixture of Hamel and my uncle, and she was telling him that she was worried about me, that I had changed from wearing cropped shirts to not-cropped shirts. I got even more angry.

I was about to yell at her, about to say that I was mad at her, when my alarm went off.

07 dreaming within a dream

I applied for a job and a guy, Jim something, came to the front desk of Tenley that was in Federal, and gave me an a hundred page test. On the back was a circuit diagram, and on the front was a giant star. He told me to fill it out while at work, even though I said it would take a while. His wife appeared, it was almost six. She said they would go to the library to wait for me, but if she could get my information, she was a reporter, and wanted to talk to me. "About WONK." I asked. She didn't make it clear. I filled out the information, but kept getting tired and putting my head down to sleep. Then, finally, inexorably, I did fall asleep.

Summer Glau was a doll and I was with her while she gave birth to a child. I was trying to fill out forms and went down the hall and ran into another woman who was talking to me about something, but needed her drugs, and Summer was dead then, only not -- she was under anesthetic and I had to carry her around. The woman in the white and pink robe, who had just given birth a few doors down, stick a needle in her arm and her pupils got larger and larger, until her head became dwarfed by them. I tried to run but Summer's body was too heavy.

I was in a test for biochem, and was being instructed to tell the class all about ribose molecules. A computer program chose various models, putting them on a screen. In the background, Jim waved his arms, telling me I had failed to finish the application, and why wasn't it done?

06 red wine and poker

There were jellyfish flying in the air.

A new house in which Clif and Billy tried to start a poker tornament.

I was Meredith Grey as an RA. On one side of the Hughes T was Mel, on the other Janelle. They both wanted something from me. I had a hand coming out of my back. Derek wanted to operate. He did. I went under anesthesia but was still aware of everything. I came up. I was Derek. I was forgetting things at AU, unsure of what was happening.

There was a soundtrack.

I was a mother and a teenage daughter talking. The daughter said "Its like driving down I-90 while drunk." The mother looked worried. "Oh don't worry about it mom," the daughter said. The mother smiled and said. "Oh I won't. You're not going to drive again for a long time."

05 driving

I went on a trip somewhere with Alicia and Rebecca. For some reason my mother came with us. We were staying on the second floor of a suburban house. I kept wanting to buy rum for mojitos. I bought the rum and put it in the fridge and realized that we were in the house that Meng was housing sitting this summer. I didn't know where to get the lime juice from. My dad was there, but he was going to New York soon. I showed him the Time magazine I had finally gotten and told him I got it for $10 a year and he was pleased. He then turned on the TV and showed me that the Ab Fab girls were starting up a new funny show that picked up where the last series ended. People kept on saying "po-tah-toe". Brittany showed up. We were in the Bethune's house. She went to organize the DVDs, taking out the cases and placing them on the drive way based on various themes in the "Best of" category. Michaela showed up and needed someone to drive her to North, and I agreed. I put on socks, and was reminded of moon bounces. Then I put on shoes. Michaela was already in the driver's seat and I realized I was driving the car back from North. I got in the passenger's seat and had a gobstopper in my mouth. We drive out and over the piles of DVDs, though Michaela said she was avoiding them. On Comm ave we turned a corner, I finished my gobstopper, and turned to Michaela to say that she was a much better driver then I had expected, and it was probably because anyone who was my brother's age I expected to be bad, and since she was younger she avoided that, but then the actual gobstopper in my mouth dissolved and it felt funny so I woke up.

04 dogs

I was at a wedding, in Vermont. We had to build the ground on which the wedding was to take place -- both wood and earth moved by large machines. I wanted candy and headed down into a small, square town, where everything was contained and all the houses were white. When I returned, we had to put up tents over the wedding ground because it was going to rain. I was allowed to sit in the middle because I knew the bride. The wedding was over and I was at home and it was dark. My mother had gone to an environmental overnight lecture, and I was in the house with my dog, only it was a grand mansion just around the stairs. I was online in the guest bedroom, and Tilly was barking. She told me her best friend was barking too, though I couldn't hear Scout. Dad came down and he yelled at me and Jasper for being online too much, after telling us our mother was terrible online. Mother came home and cooked pasta for breakfast and told me Tilly had to go...

03 mail

I wanted to get my mail, but it was taking too long and I was unsure that mail services would get it to me in time so I went to the mail room and checked my mailbox there and found all of my mail just sitting there. My credit card had arrived, but also my subscription to Time. There were two Times, one from October and one from November 2. The October one had a picture of George W. Bush on it, fuzzy and rather tabloid like and the caption was "He wanted to get Dick". There had been an assassination attempt on someone's life, and now it was coming out that the old president was trying to kill his VP. The other one had a picture of the Mediterranean and Africa and there was a hot spot green target over the middle east, though I can't remember the caption...

02 too much TV

I was watching the end of Boy Meets World, only it was Kim possible, and Cordelia from Buffy was the villian. Esther was my best friend and we were doing something... and we went to a roof top party. It was our senior year of college. She had a boyfriend and was smoking and I was uncomfortable and awkward, wearing orange crocs. A boy who looked like my physics lab professor only younger, and I had a dancing and singing number because I flipped him off for calling me pretty, but then my dad called, asking for help with a case. Turns out I was Veronica Mars, and my dad was Keith Mars. S'ree (a whale from the Young Wizards series) called then and we talked about how her boyfriend seemed to be leaving her. There was a song then, but I had to go and help my dad with his case. I got on a train and found him. We traded information then I had to go help with a wedding. I went and got on a plane, only getting through security took forever, despite being in a mall. Kat and I wanted food, but didn't have change for the vending machine. At the wedding the boy I liked from before, changed the card from his family present because his sister was Cordelia, and it saved him from getting arrested from my dad's case.

My alarm went off.

01 wedding toast

I was at school as a Campus Host, only we were in New York, or maybe Philadelphia, but it wasn't DC, when Sammie came to see me. She was with a bunch of friends and my mother was there. At some point someone said that they had to throw Sammie a bachelorette party and I was confused because I didn't know Sammie was getting married. Then she looked uncomfortable and told me that she was marrying Dave Harris and hadn't wanted to upset me, so I ran away and got on a motorcycle. I was in Newton, on my street and my dad wanted to know where I was going. I drove until I found somewhere to hide, under sheets and behind chicken wire. Sammie followed me and I told her I wasn't upset because she was marrying Dave Harris, my ex-boyfriend, but because she hadn't trusted me to tell me. Sammie handed me a card, saying it was from the person I knew, and when I opened it the card was from Lindsay, telling me that she wanted to hear about Alice and Ian and Molly. I was in a castle and there was a painting of a monster, shadowed by a man, shadowed by an elephant shadowed by a giant bug. It was a painting, and I was in my apartment and it was morning -- late morning -- I got up and went out and saw that my roommate had moved in, and Sarah (my roommate from last year) was helping her, and I thought it strange that I didn't know she was moving in. I found a bottle of vodka in my room and took it out to the kitchen. I went to see John Quast (Resident Director on Tenley) in my kitchen at home. I put on a blue, itchy sweater and John complained that Caitlin wanted things. I offered to bring them to her, and John said thanks, and handed me a plastic Starbucks cup with whiskey in it and told me to go. I woke up and looked at the clock and it said it was midday and my hand hurt. I decided to go back to sleep.

I woke up at 9:15 and stared at my clock confused.